Hurt.

All she ever talks about is being hurt and how nobody cares about her! Really because I gave you everything I had. I'd love to have my best friend back! She's the only one that knows what I go through on the daily. We never judged the weird shit we watched on tv or ate or wore. We laughed more then yelled and we made memories that are impossible to forget. Did we both do wrong? Of course. I wasn't a perfect friend. I said hurtful things; I put her down. I also picked her up and made her happy! Or at least that's what I tell myself I did. She replaced me fast. I don't think I can replace her. She was such a huge piece of my life. Replacing her is like replacing a sister. You don't do that. If I could go back to December I'd take back the words I said and I'd be happy today. I'd be complete. I miss you so much. I love you. I wish we could be best friends again.

Not fair...

I swear as soon as something starts to look up for someone they're hit by brick wall and kicked down. It's not fair. I see people work so hard and they get nothing in return! A girl I grew up with comes from a family with two hard working parents and 4 children. She's the second child and she's a genius! She works so hard and gets the impressive grades! She just got accepted to a very elite program at her dream school but the school is crazy expensive and it's gonna be hard for the family to put her through college. Yet she deserves it more then anyone! It actually breaks my heart! She's always put down by "friends" of ours and is ridiculed for wanting to live a clean life. She has no desire to drink or do drugs and that's awesome! I commend her for her strength. I guess I know what it feels like and I hate people having to feel that way I do! I don't know. I'm lost in this big world.

I'm backkk

I'm about to get back into this full time. Not to please anyone but myself. Blogging is the only thing that helps me handle life. I feel like everyone sees me as this lucky annoying girl at school. When in reality I'm not at all. Blogging is the only way I can get my feelings out there without getting judged or ridiculed. No I don't want a pity party. I want my feelings and ideas put there for the world to see. I'm hoping to get back on this full time so I can release some stress. Signing off to go watch you story. Bye!